Our New Backyard

After Joshua died by suicide, we stayed in the house where he died for almost three and a half years. It was almost more than I could bear.

If it had not been for Lord God, I would have died there. Yet God had other plans for me. We put the house on the market and within six months sold it and moved to Oregon. My home state.

We found an acre of land with house and garage and my husband and I built a small goat and chicken farm over the ten years we lived there.

It was a peaceful place to digest life without Joshua.

People were shocked that when my husband retired we kept with our plan to move back to Oregon. Why should we change our plans? Besides, we could not buy a house with a small yard in California for what we paid for the acre of land with a house.

We brought Joshua's dog and cat with us where they died there of old age. That was another heartbreaker.

Lord God was very good to us there. Then it was time to move on after ten years. We were without a home for nine months as we looked for another property to grow old on.

If you need prayer, reach out to me at jeanann_w@yahoo.com

Jean

 

SSRI's and Contracted Withdrawal

Please watch this short video before you wean off of SSRIs.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhK2pPk4F7s

 

 

SSRIs and Suicide

Joshua on the right six years before his suicide

You may wonder why I bring up SSRIs [selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor].

Joshua had been on several SSRIs by the time of his death. Because Joshua was of age, he could make his own choices in life. He chose anti-depressant drugs that did not work. He began taking them after the time his photo was taken. He took them for five years and he became more depressed, withdrawn, and sullen.

We made an appointment with his psychiatrist and told him Joshua was worse and we feared for his sanity. Even his life. We begged the doctor to counsel Josh and pull him off of the drugs he was taking.

The doctor smiled, listened, and assured us Joshua was doing well. What? He did not know Joshua. He did not live with Joshua. How could he say that?

After Joshua's suicide,  and we found his bottles of prescriptions. My husband spoke with a doctor who shed light on the medications our son was taking. Two of them were SSRIs and the doctor explained these drugs have the ability to cause suicidal thoughts.

We were devasted. Angry. Hurt beyond belief.

I can't help wondering if Joshua's psychiatrist knew what the SSRIs were capable of doing to a human brain.

I can't turn back time to right a wrong, but I can spread awareness of these potential killer drugs that are on the market.

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It is my prayer that this site blesses and encourages those who visit.

jean