My son has been gone for over twenty-two years. We still miss him. We still cry at times. We still have some of his clothes, his shoes, his things he cherished. There have been five grandchildren born since his death.
We've moved from the house where he shot himself, from that town, from that state. So we have not visited his gravestone in over ten years. Our Father God wants us to move forward after all these years. He requires it. Does God require us to forget that moment, that day Joshua died? From my studies in God's Word, I do believe we should not "look back" as Scripture teaches in a wallowing of emotions.
Yet, I do understand we need to remember so we can help others who are suffering from suicide loss. After this much time has past there is no room for self-pity in my heart. We move on so we may be a light in a dark world. We still cry with those who cry over their loss. Pray for those who want it. Hold their hands in unity for the loss we both have gone through.
I have published two memoirs on suicide loss. God's Merices after Suicide: Blessings Woven through a Mother's Heart & Covered Mercies. My books are available at Amazon, Ingram Spark, and my site: jeanannwilliamsauthor.com where there you may order and I will send you a signed copy.
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