|Joshua's last car|
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
Too soon, Jason and his family packed their suitcases and prepared to say good-bye.
We agreed that Jason should drive Joshua’s car back to his home to give it to a large family that needed an extra vehicle. Watching Joshua’s car leaving? I can’t express how much that tore at my heart. It was for the best, I knew. But I had no idea what it meant to my fragile emotions.
At that moment, reality smacked me like a fist in the face. For better or worse, we had to get through each day without our Joshua and now even without his things. Never again would I see his red Pontiac parked in our driveway.
Without Joshua. How could I do this? I couldn’t wrap my mind around such an absurd idea. I decided then that I would strive to live in the moment. I prayed for the Lord to help me achieve this one goal: one moment, one hour, and one day at a time.
After Jason and his family waved good-bye, my husband and I dove into spring-cleaning.
As we took down our bedroom blinds and washed them in our front yard, two of my husband’s coworkers pulled to the side of the curb. They visited for an hour. During their time with us, God made it clear. He had not forgotten us. Mercy came when family left and company came.
Dear Father, You watch over us, and Your loving arms continue to embrace our sorrow. In Jesus’s holy name, I’m grateful. Amen.